ookay... i'm guessing it's MY turn to step in here, considering my other two bitches have lmao... *only kidding, i luv you mom and sis!!!* okay anyways... first off, i'm gonna put everyone in a seperate corner... and CALMLY attempt to explain some stuff here... first of all... marky, it's not what you said, it's HOW you said it... if i need to pull out records i will... but the fact you're accusing a lot of people here that they're taking advantage of you and you're time, kinda hurts... forget everyone else for a sec... i know that you need you're time, and ya know what, that's fine by me... but i PMd you about this early, so maybe i need to write it here for you to see it... but ya know what, i feel like i lost one of my best friends... and NO it's not a guilt trip because things happen for a reason, ALWAYS... and ya know it's cool, i'm happy that you've got the love of you're life and all... but marky, i DON'T ask for that much of your're time, in fact, i've been giving you a LOT of space... but i do feel hurt when my PMs and messages go unanswered, it's been what, a week and some odd days, and i haven't heard from you... the last time i remember actually "talking" to you was a little over two weeks ago before i went down to O.C. for the performance i had to do... but what really hurts me more than anything is how you said what you did... yeah, you're taking time away from being with pea in order to be talking with us, and ya know what, we DO appreciate it, but marky it's how you're spinning it... don't you think that WE'RE feeling guilty??? i know i personally have been feeling so damn guilty about it, and hell i hardly ever talk to you anymore... i mean... marky you and i used to be really close friends and i stood behind you 100%, and i'm happy now that you've got a girl/woman/lover w/e to do it now, but it also makes me feel like i can't come to you for help anymore like i used to, you told kenya, that you'd always be there for us, and don't take this the wrong way, but you haven't been *again i'm NOT trying to make anyone feel guilty here that's not my goal*... but like i said things happen for a reason, if it takes the some of the pressure off ya, then i'm more than happy... but marky, i think YOU need to be fair here too... you gotta see where WE'RE coming from before you call us selfish... this was not meant in anyway to hurt you guys or make you feel guilty so don't... thanks again for all your help in the past marky, i really do appreciate it, and i'm sure everyone here does... so if space is what you want and need *as everyone deserves a break once in a while* i'm not gonna stand in your way... thanks again for everything
~nicole~
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